"Do not give up, the beginning is always the hardest."
The surprising part is how long the "beginning" goes on for. Three years ago I quit my job. I spent one year looking for work. Then by fate, I found my calling. Now 1.5 years down that path I'm making entry level wages for a job I'm over qualified for. And I have another year in front of me before I'm certified with my 1500 hours so I can begin..... my work as a Behavior Analyst.
I say all this just to say, don't give up. It's probably for the best you don't know exactly how long the beginning will take. Be gentle and take care of yourself while you ride the ups and downs of the waves before you. This too shall pass, and then other things will be important and require your full attention. The good news is you get to focus on you, your career, your path. Or maybe your beginning is different than mine, and your job is steady and your are focusing on being a part of a couple. Whatever, you choose to focus on, do it with kindness. It's a long ride, and the "beginning" can take longer than expected. ; )
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Saturday, January 26, 2013
Why are we drawn to things that don't serve us?
Why are we drawn to things not good for us?
My body shakes, and I am drawn to investigate. I find trouble and myself covered in tar. Now, that I think back, the shake wasn't positive filled with excitement and joy, but I went forward anyways. Why? The same reason I choose chocolate, when I know spinach is better for my stomach. Why?
Because I think we come to experience. On one plane there is no good or evil, there just is experience, and we are here to experience. So, we wade in. It would be nice to remain whole, tidy, on our feet dancing, but this might be more akin from where we came. Here we seem to seek out getting muddled up in life, and we wind up flat on our face. We dust ourselves off, and say why did I do that. I know better than that. I can only say.... because we are human. Maybe even more apropos than the words "human being" would be "human experiencing" and if we could emprace That, and all that it entails we could celebrate even the moments we're covered in mud. Alas, to be alive is to experience, and to be human is to have our experience, so congratulations you are living!!!!
Robert By puts it this way in, "A Home In Dark Grass"
"We did not come to remain whole.
We came to lose our leaves like the trees,
The trees that are broken
and start again drawing up from the great roots."
My body shakes, and I am drawn to investigate. I find trouble and myself covered in tar. Now, that I think back, the shake wasn't positive filled with excitement and joy, but I went forward anyways. Why? The same reason I choose chocolate, when I know spinach is better for my stomach. Why?
Because I think we come to experience. On one plane there is no good or evil, there just is experience, and we are here to experience. So, we wade in. It would be nice to remain whole, tidy, on our feet dancing, but this might be more akin from where we came. Here we seem to seek out getting muddled up in life, and we wind up flat on our face. We dust ourselves off, and say why did I do that. I know better than that. I can only say.... because we are human. Maybe even more apropos than the words "human being" would be "human experiencing" and if we could emprace That, and all that it entails we could celebrate even the moments we're covered in mud. Alas, to be alive is to experience, and to be human is to have our experience, so congratulations you are living!!!!
Robert By puts it this way in, "A Home In Dark Grass"
"We did not come to remain whole.
We came to lose our leaves like the trees,
The trees that are broken
and start again drawing up from the great roots."
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